2009 compared to 2010-I hope!

Christmas eve and all through the house not a creature was stirring-not even a mouse.

Erm, that doesn't sound like my family home. It wasn't chaos but myself and my Brother were always soooo excited-it's a cliche but Christmas eve is the most difficult night to sleep for any child. This Christmas I'm an adult-no where near childhood and I'll never get up early all excited to bundle down to the living room to find the door handle missing and no way of getting in. It is the time of year when everyone expects socks and bad jumpers and blogs are full of 'new year questionnaires' so I'm going to do one that I stole from someone else's blog-Jodi's "It's the life" it looks good, I might read it but I have a feeling that she's American and I don't know if I can handle all the unnecessary Zs.

Anyway, here goes:

1. What did you do this year that you've never done before?
I went camping and walking on the Pembrokeshire coastal path <3 Agreed to a proposal that I intend to see through. Looked at houses with the intention of buying one. Moved into my own flat. I think I grew up a lot this year.

2. Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I can't remember if I made any, probably to give up smoking. I'll make the same one this year. And break it by the 4th Jan


3. Any new births this year? Noah and Tommy


4. Did anyone close to you die? My Grandad, July we were all there and we'll really miss him this year.

5. What countries did you visit this year? Does Wales count? it was like going abroad. When we went in May it was like the Great Ocean Road in Victoria, Australia. When we went in Sept. it was like, well Wales really. When we went in Nov. it was like India during a monsoon

6. What would you like to have in the next year that you lacked this year? A wonderful Boyfriend-sorry, fiancee and somewhere nice to live-hang on, I've got that!! I'd really like a stable job. I'm soooo fucked off with temping.


7. What date from this year will remain etched upon your memory - and why? 2nd September 2009 my Dalek proposed


8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? Getting a nice place to live, mind you the achievement part there should go to my Dad, he did all the hard work. Not wanting to make this all about the proposal but I did decide on who I'm spending my life with.


9. What was your biggest failure of the year? Being turned down for a job that a monkey could do because I didn't demonstrate my abilities in the interview-Showed a bit too much ambition for my supervisors liking.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury? No biggies, nothing I remember anyway.

11. What was the best thing you bought this year? My posh cup for loose tea and the book shelves in my living room.

12. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? My own, when I'm drunk I'm a liability.

13. Whose behavior merited celebration (a public or private personality)? My brother has made me proud this year.

14. Where did most of your money go this year? Biggest expense is rent, biggest extravagance is either weed or posh tea-it's definitely botanical.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about this year? My engagement! It seems to have put a real stamp on 2009.


17. What song will always remind you of this year? Killing in the name of is the Christmas number one!!!

18. Compared to this time last year, are you:- happier or sadder? Happier, I think I don't really like Christmas- richer or poorer? about even, I've got a job that pays less but I have a flat that costs less. Oh, probably going to be poorer this year I had to give up my pub job :(- thinner or fatter? I've been the same weight since I was about 18

19. What do you wish you'd done more of? Travelling and spending quality time with my loved ones-specifically my brother.

20. What do you wish you'd done less of? Worrying, fretting and hating. Plotting, scheming and wishing things where different.

21. How did you spend the holidays?- I don't really get summer holidays, but most of the holiday time I did take was spent in Wales.

22. Did you fall in love this year? Yes and no. I fall in a bit more love with the same man everyday but he's the same one I've been in love with for two & a half years now.

23. How many one-night stands did you have this year? See above. Of course I haven't!

24. What was your favorite TV program for the year? Merlin!!! Love that show. Gavin and Stacey-Tidy. I love anything by David Attenborough so 'Life' has been brilliant.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? No, it's the same bunch of cunts I hate every year. I don't like my supervisor because she didn't give me a job that's beneath me, but hate would be taking that a bit too far.

26. What was the best book you read this year? I read 'brave New World' again but that's a given. 'Island' also by Aldous Huxley was brilliant.

27. What was your favorite film of the year? I don't really watch films, I saw 'The Green Mile' again and enjoyed it. Slum dog millionaire was good. Not really a film buff.

28. How would you describe your personal fashion concept this year? Office. or skinny jeans and funky tee shirts, particularly Stabby McKnife.

29. Whom did you miss this year? I miss my Grandpa quite a lot. I've missed Matthew before he went psycho. I'll miss Jade 'til the day I die.

30. Who was the best new person you met this year?- I met the Mayor a few times but he's not the best person I've met. I don't think I've met any body that I intend to keep in touch with. Tom Top and Father were nice in that pub in Llanelli.

This is a little out of date now, but it seems such a shame to just delete it so I'll post it here:

I live in a pokey bedsit in the east end of London, it has mice, damp and numerous drafts but for the time being it's home. This is my blog so I can spout off about things that annoy me and generally keep a record of what's keeping me busy/sane. I'll probably shove some creative writing in at some point-but I wouldn't read it if I were you, it's probably rubbish. I don't know if I'm brave enough to put the whole truth of what runs through my head on here, I don't think I could confrunt it with out running insanely away arms and legs flailing. Feel free to do what you want, it's no good saying 'don't do that' because you will have to do it to see.

Now I have to write a new one...